Ok, i had a mental breakdown, i couldnt sleep the other night which led to a whole two days of unproductiveness, and on top of that, I have been watching these videos made by CalArts enrolers of their portfolio sketch books, They are FREAKIN amazing, the amount of hard work they put into these sketchbooks, I cant even describe.
They get rejected.
Though they are mainly traditional artists, the amount of hard-work and dedication they have, is well above mine, if I want to get taken seriously, i need to take myself seriously, also, I don't know what stream of illustration i want to go into, I wanted to write comics when I was in school, but now fashion illustration seems nice, yet I have this whole digital painting idea looming over my head. And all this time I have about 2 irl people supporting me. Pretty depressing.